Stand me by a mirror
And tell me I’m wrong
That there is not a woman
But a man all along
Staring back
With a glum look on his face
Feeling slightly confident
But torn and unplaced
Spit in my face
And tell me I’m wrong
That I am a woman
Not a man all along
Because I will not listen
It will never be true
I am male
In all that I do
And one day I’ll tell you
And you’ll understand
That I’ve never felt right
And you'll keep hold of my hand
You'll say its ok
Not 'my daughter', 'my son'
That you understand
Each feeling I've become
But I know it's not real
You will never accept
I’ll be left to crumble
With no
There is white falling beyond my window
whilst my body stings and throbs and aches
from my own wrongdoing; I am a fool.
One you should never wish to know:
a hypocrite, a liar and a breaker of promise.
Would you associate with what's beneath?
Every mutilation created with my hands;
Themselves bloodied, picked and scarred.
Every soul behind a screen attempts to reach out and touch me
to say 'I'm sorry I'm not there'
but their hands cannot surpass the miles
only words can travel great distance.
Each syllable touches my heart
and they keep me ticking like a grandfather clock:
one that is old and rusting, barely tick-tocking at all.
A Brief Walk to the Post Office by Realitea, literature
Literature
A Brief Walk to the Post Office
A tepid January,
A Friday afternoon,
The sun hanging low,
And a task there to do.
A trip to the post office,
So trivial, the norm,
In a small Essex village,
Brisk but yet warm.
As I take a walk,
With three letters in my hand,
A rehearsed conversation
All ready and planned.
I cross the street,
To avoid a dog walker,
And I take a brief skip,
To avoid some water.
I walk past the nursery,
So empty and still,
And I look at the houses
And their windowsills.
Some have flowers,
And some have glass,
Others have clocks
And others are sparse.
And I continue walking
Down the sloping street
It sits on a hill
With the pavement,
Please let me know the definition of 'normal', 'ordinary' and 'conventional',
Should I ever fit those labels? I believe not
But I shall make the most of my oddities and push the boundaries I am stuck within
Trapped would never be a necessary word
There is always a way out, an escape, a glimpse of freedom.
I've passed many barriers and this is merely another.
One that has engulfed each and every other border surrounding me my whole life,
Every day it niggled in my mind: during childhood, puberty and now, young adulthood
I'll never quite know in the next passing years how it feels to wake up in the right body
But I'll understand, withi
I apologise for my existence
Would it not be much easier on you
If I was terminated or an entity which never was?
Yet there are things within my own life
Which I cherish so dear
That are almost outweighed by the embarrassment
And the shame I cause you
And I'm sorry
For being born a disappointment…